I can feel your love and support, and it’s getting harder for me to communicate with you. This blog will be shorter than past ones. As my cancer progresses, I now have a caregiver with me 24/7. My independence is gone and I am feeling the love of my friends who are willing to walk me to the bathroom in the middle of the night. I live upstairs in my bedroom where I have the best view of the dogwood tree that is changing colors out my window, and the full moon that shines in my bedroom window.
It would be easier on my caregivers if I moved into a hospital bed downstairs. It’s an indication of their love for me that they are going up and down the stairs many times a day, instead of forcing me into an even smaller world not of my choosing.
I am still engaged in eating, but much smaller amounts. I still care that the San Francisco Giants aren’t in the playoffs, and I am rooting for whoever is “not the Dodgers.”
Thank you from the bottom of my heart for your prayers and your caring. I wish I had the energy to call each one of you and have a meaningful conversation, but so far I can’t muster the energy to do that. Talking exhausts me. Silent love is flowing from me to you.
Below is a link to a podcast I did recently with Justin White, son of Terri Tate. Many of you know Terri Tate as a long-time associate and presenter for Healing Journeys.
For about 5 years, Justin had been doing a weekly podcast having open-ended conversations with unique guests. He had taken a break from that, but wanted to do a podcast with me because of my approach to dying.
The tone of the podcast is like eavesdropping on a conversation between friends. So, it’s too long; but he didn’t want to leave anything out. The podcast is broken into sections, with musical breaks in-between, making it easier to listen to sections over time by keeping track of the “time” where you left off, or skipping over parts by fast forwarding. You can listen here:
https://www.ilyapod.com/2025/10/04/jan-adrian-ep-112/
As always, I love hearing from you, so feel free to leave a comment below.
Sending love and hugs! 🤗
Hi Jan,
I’m glad you advocated for the upstairs window to enjoy the twitterings, comings n goings on, of the outdoor communities while keeping snug, warm, and comfy….
Thank you for all your service throughout the years and inspirations in ways you have made a difference in your own life’s journey showing others the abundant possibilities in each step of the journey.
Much love, joy and gratitude sprinkling gently over you, not to interrupt the outdoor chatterings and conversations 🙏🏼💕☮️🥰🎶🌻🍁🩷
Rev. TanyiaLee Ceremello
We’ve known each other through Spiritual Life Center since its beginnings…namaste and peace ☮️
We are with you in thought. Thank you SO much for sharing your journey Jan. Big hugs🙏
Jan, your courage and strength have touched my life in so many ways. The wisdom you shared in your book and your heartfelt shares in Thomas’s Cafe’ will remain in my heart as a lasting reminder of your beautiful light. I love you.
Jan, thank you for continuing to write as much or as little as you can, when you can, and for allowing us to go with you as far as we can on your journey–for sharing your words, energy, contemplations on death–and what team you love! Thanks for this rare gift you’re giving us–but, of course, it’s just like you to keep giving and offering your energy and wisdom even as you prepare to leave us in this realm. Sending bunches of love your way, P & Catlings (Shiloh Rose, Citrine Moonbeam & Crash Lulu)
Holding you in my heart and in the light for health and healing
Thank you for spending some of your limited energy to write this blog, Jan. I will listen to the podcast soon.
My 78th birthday was Thursday, so I gave myself the gift of a whale-watching trip in the San Juan Islands yesterday. It was a mostly cloudy and very cool day on the boat, but we did (finally) see one juvenile Orca and followed him for quite awhile. He did not breach, unfortunately, but by his movements and other telling evidence, the naturalist concluded that he had caught a seal or other mammal life and was busy breaking it up into handleable pieces and consuming it.
A professional photographer (with a very large telephoto lens) made a slideshow of what we witnessed, and I should receive a copy of it soon. I will forward it on to you as soon as I receive it so you can enjoy it, too.
I wholeheartedly support you for insisting on being upstairs where you can see outside and some of what gives you pleasure and where you most want to be. Your caregivers are young(er) and able, and the exercise is good for them. I’m sure they are happy to give you this gift.
I am holding you in my heart, and wish you peace and a painless journey.
Much love.
Roxana,
I think we met on Cancer Talks group support. If this is you, I am so happy to hear from you and what you shared with Jan!
Happy 78 th birthday!!! I know at one point you were living in New Mexico…?
Blessings in abundance,
Meg (Michigan)
Healing Journeys was such a gift when I was diagnosed with my second breast cancer in 2000. You knew what I needed long before I had any awareness of the rich possibilities Healing Journeys offered. Thank you for continuing to share your journey with us .
May all good blessing be yours!
Sounds like you are surrounded by love and helping hands. Think of the stairs as good exercise (that’s what I do in my house with two staircases) and stay where you are most comfortable. I think of you often and so appreciate this update. You have given so much to this world, and no one will be able to forget your positive approach to cancer.
Jan, sending so much Love to you as your Soul beckons to the Higher Realmns where your Spirit will be free to soar and receive 10 fold the Love and Light you have shared with so many on this Earth Journey! You will always be one of the Heroes along my own Life Path. Know your work and Life Mission with Healing Journeys has impacted thousands! “You have done good, my friend!” It is time to rest. May you be embraced with the wings of Angels and support of your Loved Ones as you make this transition. Blessings on your Forever Journey!
Jan,
Linda and I send you our love. We are forever grateful to have gotten to know you and spend some quality time with you at Kerri’s house and at SLC. Your bravery and willingness to share with us this journey you’re taking is inspiring. We know you are surrounded by many wonderful angels who are watching over you and there to welcome you when the time comes.
Dear Jan,
I am so moved by your generosity to us all. I feel sad that you are leaving us, but the Truth is, that you will be with us always, as all of our loved ones who have passed surely are. Thank Georgia for us, as well as Fran, and all of your care providers. And I thank all of the contributors to your work over the years. I especially want you to know that I Finally bought your amazing book and read it through, many parts, more than once. More wisdom for us all. I am grateful to have contributed in whatever ways I have been able to you and Healing Journeys. Much Love forever, from Mark Beau
Oceans of love from a former volunteer in Sacramento and Napa. Not a cancer survivor. Just a survivor from workplace trauma, and you helped me heal from that. Hope you ride the waves of all the love flowing to you. Love is all there is.
Dear Jan,
You are such an inspiration for me. Know that you are loved and for those of us who were lucky enough to attend any one of your Healing Journeys conferences we are forever indebted and touched by your inspirational spirit.
Peace be with you dear Jan…
Dearest Jan… My heart and my eyes are both full to overflowing, and I am sending you so much love. I wish you the most extraordinary and loving adventure yet ahead. “Thank you” for Being, and for sharing yourself so we can learn from you. I wish I had more answers than questions, but there are no shortcuts. Happy Trails, Beautiful Spirit. Sending you courage and peace.
Thank you for using some of your precious energy to send us an update, Jan. I think of you often with healing blue going out to you regularly. How wonderful that you are able to remain in your bedroom with the view and can enjoy the change of season.
You continue to inspire and I am grateful to know you!
Lots of love, Ruth
Prayers for continued strength
Jan, your spirit is amazing! You’ve touched so many lives throughout the years and you still continue to do that. I am sending love and much white light your way. Hugs, Holly
I am praying for on this stage of your journey. Thank you for all you have given to me as another breast cancer survivor.
Nancy
Sending you much love and light as you approach this transition, Jan. Send us all signs from the other side. xoxo
Jan – you are such an inspiration- I have no words. I admire the path you have chosen and the love you continue to express to life and all those around you. I believe there is more adventure to be had – when you leave this earthly plane you will continue to adventure into the next layer of your journey.
I hope the journey is a gentle one as your spirit travels to the next great place. Your work in this life will live on. Surrounding you with light and love, the gifts you have so freely given to countless others over the years.
Dearest Jan, I am so happy you are feeling blanketed in the love flowing towards you. The wave of love that endlessly propelled you transformed each of us who came to be nourished by your insights, your work, and your unflinching transparency about . . . well, most every single thing and especially what was happening in your heart and your body. I am forever inspired and grateful. And will be forever after. Thank you for lighting our way. Always, Dee
Thank you for sharing from your heart. I am forever grateful for the journey I have shared with you since 2001. I always knew you would be there when I needed it. It’s been 5 years since my third diagnosis and moving to Oregon. I will miss your blogs and all the wonderful events I experienced because of your gifts. Even today when a song comes on that was played at one of the weekends, it makes me misty eyed, especially the “Hero” song. Glad you have care as needed.
Dear Jan,
Thank-you for continuing to let us know how you are “being”, even though it’s getting harder. I have written a tribute to you in the CancerChoices blog called “Jan Adrian: What She Taught Me about Thriving and Healing in the Midst of Persistent Cancer.” Even and perhaps especially in your last days in your body you continue to inspire and teach countless folks on the healing journey. Deep love and peace to you. Laura
https://cancerchoices.org/jan-adrian-what-she-taught-me-about-thriving-and-healing-in-the-midst-of-persistent-cancer/?highlight=Jan%20Adrian
Dearest Jan, from my first sight of your vibrant red hair so long ago in the pews at Pioneer, to the stunning white that showed up on your head like a crown, you have been inspiring. Sharing your journey with so many of us is a testament to the power of love and living fully. Dying fully is a gift we need to see to believe. Thank you for this most precious gift. When our dear Faith passed, Dr. Garland Landrith exclaimed over the phone, “Oh! Good for her!” It took a moment to see that he was happy for her letting go of the pain and difficulty.
So I say to you now, “Oh! good for you!” To have lived and to die in a most meaningful way.
Godspeed!
Thank you Jan for your beautiful and heartfelt communication. I delight that you are where you want to be, seeing the Dogwood change and the site of the moon is a true gift. I am touched by your honesty and willing to communicate your journey with all of us, it empowers us to see things through a different lens that we may not have seen. You know I think about you often, and I’m grateful for the caregivers and love and support that you are receiving, you are worthy and deserving of every bit of it! I haven’t listened to the podcast yet but will do so and I’m looking forward to it! Sending you love and a gentle hug! Blessings to you dear one…
Love always, dear Jan.
God Speed Jan🙏
Bless you on your sweet journey, Jan. I have always felt your kind and loving ways. You are leaving a beautiful legacy by sharing your journey. May you slip gently into your next adventure. 💗
The divine trickster in me wants to root for the Dodgers now! We have fun dear friend.
I want to thank you, Jan, for being a pickleball mate during the pandemic. I haven’t forgotten how much those connections meant to me. Meeting you was truly a blessing.🙏🏼
Grace and peace be with you on your next adventure.❤️
Love and prayers. Thank you for all the help I have received from your lectures. Fifteen years breast cancer free.
Jan, love and peace on your journey, and thank you for sharing your insights. You have blessed so many, even those of us who have been inspired from a distance.
Friend, your words have always been an inspiration and a guidepost for many of us. You have given so much to all of us. Thank you. I continue to wrap you in love and prayers and heartfelt meditations.
Thank you, Sandra, for your wonderful writings and joining Jan (or Jan with you) in sharing this journey! I was blessed to be in one of your groups.
Ditto what you said! Jan is a treasured friend.
Love,
Meg
Sending love to you jan and thank you for all the love and support you have always given me with my music and my path…you are a bright light that will forever shine in all our hearts. I send prayers daily to you for ease and grace and having your needs being met in every way. Love and more love to you ……
Jan! The last time I saw you in person was at Sac City’s Dental health clinic. What a nice surprise that was! Most of my contacts are on-line, where I have enjoyed and benefitted from your calm, logical and insightful presence. Thomas’ Spiritual cafes, Linda’s Social Consciousness groups, etc., and Kerry has kept me posted as well. I’m 89; I rooted for the Dodgers when they took on the first black baseball player, so don’t forget that, and give them a little slack. lol! <3
Hi Jan,
It’s Meg from Michigan. As I watch fall arrive… the trees changing color, the air fresh …all reminders of life’s changes, I think of you as you engage in life’s transition.
You are loved and so deeply appreciated. Thank you for making this world a more loving place.
Love,
Meg
I love you Jan, thank for being such an inspiration always.
In my thoughts and prayers always.
Dear Jan, thank you for sharing your journey so openly and beautifully. You are such an inspiration. I am sending much love your way and smile thinking of you enjoying the dogwood colors and the moon – last week’s supermoon was fantastic. Big gentle hugs to you. – Allison B
You are such an inspiration to so many! You have been a special inspiration to me.
From one on one experience with your work, I developed my own kind of cancer support work, free of charge. Though not as massive as the work you have done, I have managed to help others, on the journey, one by one. It’s the best work I’ve done in my time on earth. I hope you got to listen to my latest work on passing peacefully at http://www.infinitetransitions.com
Your legacy is expansive and runs deep in the community. You have touched too many to count. That alone should allow you to fly out of here with a huge smile on your face! A job well done, my dear. Blessings to you dear Sister! Love you Jan!
Jan, Thank you for sharing your courage and wisdom. I think of you and send you strength and peace daily.
Laura
I am writing this with immense gratitude, for your devotion to uplifting cancer survivors and their families and filling our world with hope! For me, the free 2005 “From Surviving to Thriving” event held at Furman University in Greenville, SC was a turning point and changed the trajectory of my life after cancer. The educational sessions and connections you helped manifest, helped light my path forward. Although we only met and briefly spoke there – for someone I never knew personally, you profoundly impacted my life and brought light to a very dark time. Thank you for using your gift and your story to touch so many lives. Wishing you peace and comfort on the journey ahead. With deepest heartfelt gratitude and inspiration, Heidi ~ a fellow survivor
Jan,
Thank you for making the effort to write this blog. Though I know you only on Zoom, I am grateful. I’m so glad you have loving caregivers who allow you to live upstairs so you can see the dogwood tree.
Much love,
Ruth
Dear Jan, In thought and heart I cherish the many ways you have impacted my life. Your passion and curiosity, your lifelong commitment to embracing personal health, have been a gift to many. Though our physical contact has been sporadic over the years, you have touched me deeply. Your legacy is timeless; long after the body is done you will live on. May the view outside your bedroom window continue to feed you, as loved ones accompany you through the hours. 🌟💖
Dear Jan,
You have touched my mind, body, heart and soul in so many ways.
I shall always be grateful to have met you on my journey.
I especially appreciate how you helped people visualize and create possibility and how you encouraged stepping out of the box with such compelling research and thought.
I love that you are able to see the beautiful dogwood trees from your window. I am currently putting together an exhibit for an upcoming stamp show and I had to have in the exhibit the “gifts of friendship stamps” joint stamps between the United States and Japan with the cherry blossom trees the United States got from Japan in 1912 and the dogwood trees that the United States gave to Japan in 1915. May you always be a blessing.